Water and Be Watered

Do you ever brush God off because you don’t know how to do what he’s asking of you?

That’s been my last couple months. Truly I didn’t even consider it an excuse because how can I logistically do something I honestly don’t know how to do? But then God whispers in my heart, “That’s the point.” Why would He ask me to do something I’m fully capable of doing all on my own when asking me to step out and do something I’m not fully capable of and will be desperate for His help in doing would grow my trust in Him and deepen our relationship?

So here I am writing this blog. I don’t know what it’s going to look like week-to-week. I can’t fully think out the direction it’s supposed to take. But I know God, my own Creator, is asking me to write and share pieces of my relationship with Him with His other children. And I’m learning to lean into that being enough for me to start moving. The checklist-making, planner side of me is highly uncomfortable. But if I know my God fully knows and loves me, then I know I can trust He knows what’s best for me and how to guide me. He can care for me far better than I can care for myself.

As I questioned God why would he want to use me to walk alongside other believers in this way and speak into others’ day-to-day lives – He gave me a picture.

I have 2 children; Ace is 3 and JJ is 10 months. Ace is finally settling into his new role as big brother. Earlier that day, JJ was fussy and annoyed he was sitting on the floor 2 feet away from mama instead of attached at my hip like he prefers. Big brother Ace likes to problem solve and try to fix his little brother whenever he can. So he ran over to the cubby and picked out a toy JJ usually likes and ran it over to give to his whining brother. JJ squealed with a big grin. Ace was very proud of himself. But no one in the room had more joy in watching this unfold than me, their mama. Could I have grabbed his favorite tried-and-true toy and done it myself? Sure. It would have been faster even. And honestly easier than Ace fumbling with the toy in JJ’s face and JJ taking 3 tries to finally get a grasp on it before he held it for himself.

But there’s something so incredible and blessing to watch my child step out and care for my other child.

This is the picture God gave me to begin to grasp His joy in letting His children follow His lead and care for one another. Sometimes it’s clumsy. Sometimes we accidently step on each other’s fingers as we get closer. I would imagine usually it takes a whole lot longer and becomes more complicated to involve sinners in caretaking rather than God just doing it perfectly alone, Himself. But the joy it brings Him, and the joy that bubbles up inside of us when He invites us to enter into caring for one another and we follow through far surpasses the “quick and easy” way of doing things.

I’m grateful God’s called me onto this journey, even though He knows I’ll clumsily fumble my way along sometimes. I pray this blog will become a source of caring, comfort, and joy to whoever’s hands God brings it.

From one of His children to another,

Christi